reflections on a genocide studies class
I came to this class the first time
in the spring of 2012, just a few months after my husband died. At that time I was a Psychology
major/Anthropology Minor/ and LGBT Studies Certificate student. I originally signed up for the class because
I knew that my interpretation of genocide, and especially the Holocaust, had
been skewed by the atrocious memories of my mother and mother-in-law, both of
whom were German, both driven from their homes by an advancing Russian
army. I wanted a scholarly perspective
that went beyond rhetoric. Over the
course of the first time through the class I was horrified to discover how few
episodes of genocide I had actually been aware of and the causes and outcomes
of each haunted my thoughts and put me on a search for a meaning behind such
madness. Over the ensuing two years my
life has gone through many personal changes – much of it upheaval in the most
intrinsic sense. As I watched my life
implode little by little I continued to think back on the catastrophic effects
genocide produced in individuals for whom, it can honestly be said, the world
as they knew it was obliterated forever.
I returned to the class this
semester with the same academic aspirations, but with a new perspective on
life. I saw even the most all-consuming
tragedy as an amoral event given moral valance by the actions (and inactions)
of each individual involved – however indirectly. I began to dig deeper into the information
presented throughout the class, always searching to ascertain where individual
agency manifested itself, and what resulted from it. I especially centered on issues of complicity
– both for those that become perpetrators and for those that stand by and do
nothing. Throughout the readings, and in
conjunction with the research I did in preparation for the two APBR projects, I
delved deeply into both the effects of collective ideology and the psychology
behind individual agency. At times I
brought controversial opinions to the discussion because I want a forum where
such things could be openly debated – and I was not disappointed.
Prior to coming to Northern I had
graduated from an intensive two-year Lay Ministry certification program through
the Catholic Diocese of Rockford. It was
there that I found my true passion in the study of belief. Not just religious belief, but belief as a
human construct and intrinsic dimension of our make-up. This class has not only fueled that passion
but given it a present-day immediate relevance as well, as every episode of
genocide was expounded via the perspective of what did the parties involved
believe as these events unraveled. As a
result I plan to take the knowledge gleaned from this class and funnel it back
into my own research in order to give voice to the importance of individual
responsibility and the power of agency.
I am confident that once the history vaults are thoroughly scrubbed of
shaded interpretations, a method can be found that will enable social
scientists to begin the daunting task of reminding the world what it truly
means to be a socially-situated human creature and world citizen. I want to be part of that process – through
writing, research, speaking, and engagement.
Many years ago I read Karl
Menninger’s “Whatever Became of Sin?” in which he examines the consequences of
losing touch with individual issues of accountability and recompense. In this class I have had been privileged to
bookend that lesson with what happens when this occurs among large groups of
people.
This has left me convinced that the
asking of forgiveness must not be accompanied by amnesia. It is vital that we continue to remember and
learn from each genocidal event so that these incidents can one day be finally
relegated to the pages of history. But
not a history cloaked in either polemic or whitewash. But a history that is ours to bear and bear
up. If I would erase the tragedies of my
own individual life, what would become of the person I am today? If we attempt a revisionist view towards the
darker aspects of our collective history, what part of our humanity will be
sacrificed in the process? This class
has taught me in graphic and unforgettable terms what happens when good people
forget, and the voices of evil are the only ones remaining to be heard.
Time and again areas of the world
have descended into serial episodes of intractable horror only to emerge with
the belief that forgetting is the best path to healing. Generations grow up not knowing their
collective cultural history or the responsibility bequeathed to them because of
it. There was a time when I truly wished
my mother could forget, and I harbored a deeply-seated but unspoken rage at the
unspeakable events she survived. Today I
know that had I succeeded in forgetting I would have been no better in
preventing the continued existence of such evil as if I had personally
succumbed to it. We must stand together
as one voice for justice – no matter the location, the people; the time. We must accept the harsh reality that for
every possible crime within the constellation of genocide it could be us and
move toward bringing that reality and the implications of its truth to the
wider audience of the world.
The last time the Honors group met
you said that in your work in Cyprus you had “managed to make both sides angry,
so you must be doing something right.” I
smiled then, but that statement profoundly summed up what must be done by
everyone with breath so that bringing to light the realities of these tragedies
can be a path to reconciliation, forgiveness and education. I would like to believe that genocide is
something we, as a species, can someday prevent forever. But rather than focus on that, this course
has taught me that the more important concentration must be on “what can I do
today to make sure it isn’t happening on my watch?”
I wish there was a part-two to this
class because I feel there is so much left to learn, but another benefit of
this experience is that I am now aware of a myriad of resources where I can
continue to study on my own and where one day I hope to have some small measure
of impact. Beyond the various
disciplines that define my intellectual passions, I am a writer by heart, and
it is through that vehicle that I hope to leave my mark in the ongoing struggle
for Human Rights and Justice. This class
has armed me with a wealth of information and a more astute understanding of
some of the most horrifying and tragic world events and how the consequences of
these continue to influence the world today, and a deeper belief in the
importance of the individual in all aspects of this reality. For that I am
profoundly grateful.
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